I cannot believe the depth that wickedness can and has gone. With the state of America’s government and with the state of our global well-being AND the awful state of our society, it is just scary if your around 60 or older, I can’t speak for anyone younger. I know these must be the pioneers of tomorrows sins. Changing the sex of your own toddlers, aborting full term babies or is the term ‘babies’ unimportant now, if we call them ‘children’ would they stop? All for the sake of selfish endeavor’s.

It’s amazing what can happen when we listen to that voice inside of ourselves, while my world screamed to ‘kill’, my voice said ‘no’. That day I went against ‘everyone’ I knew. My appointment being at 11 am was nearing that morning. I had spent the night in my hometown that was near the hospital that was to do this three day visit abortion, I knew already I wasn’t going, but I still had to make that happen. I wasn’t the kind of person to go against the numbers, but this was a God issue. For one, I NEVER believed in abortion even back to when I had learned about it. For two, I had felt her, yes even at 12 weeks I could feel the life in me that was being rejected by the very people that were to love her.

As I sat a friend’s dining table over cups of coffee that morning, chattering away. I never left, just continued to chatter and drink that coffee. I remember all those years back as if it were today that feeling of ‘almost’ total relief come over me, I was going to have my baby. I still had to forego my then husband and both of our families. But, in all honesty, I guess it went smooth enough, I have no recollection of anything after that awful morning and the relief that I felt, I knew then she was mine and God had given her to me. I’ve always felt that way and I always will, as she nears the end of her thirties. My heart skips a beat when I see the very fruit of her love for me, complete faith and trust in me around her babies, the love she bestows on me in a days time. I know God gave her to me, now if I could die knowing she’s going to heaven, maybe one dream in my life will come true.

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